I'm The Alpha's Mate Page 3

  When I was a child, I was always watching the other pups play, laugh, cry, and shout outside. I watched from the attic window, alone, as I was often by myself. They would tell me that the attic was a safe place, a place where no one could hurt me, yet there I was more hurt than ever. As a child, I felt abandoned, left in a room and forgotten by the two people who were supposed to love me the most.

  They never saw me as their child after I told my mother. I was only a secret to be hidden and kept from the world, but for what? What was the point in keeping me alive if I could not live?

  I stayed in the attic, pretending I was normal and pretending that I was the child they longed for. I had no one but the Moon Goddess to talk to, to play with. My mother set up a bed and dresser for me, even a toy box with dolls and such. I often did not want to play with toys but with the other children in our pack. As I watched them from the window, I would imagine myself there with them, wrestling, learning, and embracing childhood as a werewolf, which was something unique.

  I guess I was too unique. I did not know that no one else could see her, or talk with her. I thought it was normal.

  “You are strong,” my wolf tells me, coming out from her corner and bringing me back to the present.

  I nod my head and turn towards the bedroom doors.

  I peek into the hallway and see no one. After taking a calming breath, I quietly sneak down the hall until I reach the same stairs Marina and I used earlier. Once at the bottom, I hear voices.

  “He did. I saw her when she first came in.”

  “Well, what does she look like?”

  “She’s a pretty girl, but she seems a little off. I don’t know. Not normal.”

  Are they talking about me?

  Before I can listen more, the voices grow too close. They are coming around the corner. Immediately, I head off to the opposite direction, away from the staircase, but I am not fast enough.

  “Hey, it’s you,” the familiar voice calls out to me, and when I reluctantly turn around, I see the boy who opened the door—the one standing there when the dog ran out.

  “Where were you going?” he asks.

  “Um, I’m not sure.”

  Another guy is standing beside him, watching me.

  “You’re my brother’s mate.”

  The boy is the alpha’s brother. I did not think about my mate having a family before, though the idea of it is quite evident. He must have parents, and a brother is normal, I suppose. The boy does not look much like the alpha though.

  “Yes, I am.”

  “I was just on my way to get you. My brother wants to see you,” he tells me. “I’m Henry.”

  “Evangeline.”

  He nods, and the boy beside him drifts away without saying a word.

  Henry glances at him, then back to me. “I’ll take you to him.”

  Deciding to take a risk, I catch his attention. “Wait, I have to get back to my grandmother. She doesn’t know where I am. Your brother, the alpha said I could go.”

  “My brother said you could leave?”

  “Well, yes. We made a deal,” I explain. “Now can you point me in the direction of the door, oh, and the stream also if you can.”

  Henry does not seem convinced. “You better talk to him about it. He just told me to go check on you and take you down if you’re ready.”

  I hold my breath.

  “Alright. Fine. Take me to him.”

  Chapter 3

  At my grandmother’s house, everything is cozy and relaxed. While there, I am scared that if I touch something, it will break, shatter, and get me in trouble. It is a lovely house but far too fragile for me.

  “Henry?” I call out to him as we make our way down the same hallway that leads to the alpha’s office. “I need a favor.”

  He peeks back at me, looking rather curious. “What?”

  “When I was in the cells, there was a girl in the same cell as mine. She needs to be free.”

  He lets out a hum, telling me that he is thinking. Then he turns back to the hallway.

  When we come up to the familiar gray doors, my heart starts to pick up pace and my nerves spike. The intoxicating scent of my mate fills my nose. Henry lightly knocks on the door, and I come back to reality. A low, familiar “Come in” prods at my ears. Slowly, the door opens, and I am almost too anxious to see him again.

  I enter the room, but Henry does not. He shuts the door behind me as if to trap me in. I glance up and see the alpha sitting at his desk. Just like earlier, he looks powerful and intimidating. I begin to feel extremely nervous. Something about this man has me begging on my knees and hiding my face behind my hands at the same time. He makes me feel desired even without saying a word.

  The alpha stands up and slowly walks over to me. My breath hitches when he is still a few steps away. He comes closer until he is right in front of me. His scent makes my mind go foggy.

  “I see you found my robe.” His voice is smooth like music to my ears.

  He rolls the very soft fabric right beside my neck with his fingers.

  I can hardly speak, and I am sure if I tried, the words will come out as a squeak. I no longer have dirt smeared on my face and dusty clothes, but my hair is damp and possibly tangled. Here I am again, worried about my appearance.

  “The g-girl in the cell, she needs to be set free,” I say with the last of my courage.

  “Making demands so soon?” His hand gently scoops up my own.

  His touch is soft on my skin, and I only begin to want more. The feeling of him is something so new, so addictive, and so good.

  “I love the way you react to my touch,” he says in my ear, causing my mind to run blank and erasing all the things I had planned on saying.

  A blush appeared on my cheeks, and I look away, not wanting him to see me as a gushing fool. I have never been in a relationship before and let alone kissed a boy. Obviously, at eight years old, I was not running around kissing every boy I saw for obvious reasons. With Grandmother, I did not think about boys at all, as there were none around.

  “Look at me,” he says.

  “I’m sorry, but I don’t know anything about packs and hardly anything about mates. I barely remember my old pack.” I gaze up at him and look right into his emerald eyes. “I have to get back to my grandmother.”

  His handsome face hardens. “Why are you not part of a pack?”

  “I don’t—I don’t know.” Truthfully, I think I know, but I do not see the need for him to know.

  My grandmother chose life to be this way, so I obey. My time in a pack was not great anyway, and now I have no desire to be in one.

  “What do you mean you do not know? Have you always been rogue?”

  “What’s rogue?” I question, confused.

  He looks at me almost like he cannot believe what I am saying.

  “Where do you live?”

  “With my grandmother, across the stream,” I answer him while gently pushing out of his grasp, though I already miss the feel of him. “I have to get back to her. She doesn’t know where I am.”

  Suddenly, a man comes through the office doors, and he seems startled. The alpha immediately looks at him with hard eyes.

  “Alpha, we found two rogues on the border, so we brought them to the cells. What should we do?” the man asks for orders.

  “Get rid of them.”

  Get rid of them? The rogues? I do not understand. Andrew called me a rogue, so why did they not get rid of me?

  “What are you going to do with them? Lock them up?” I question.

  “I don’t have time for this. Ryker, just do as I say,” my mate grumbles and crosses his arms over his chest.

  My eyes stay fixed on his bulging muscles like that of a fourteen-year-old girl. I quickly snap myself out of my trance and cross my arms over my chest in response. He does not have time for my question?

  The man, Ryker, leaves the office in a hurry, and I attempt to follow him out the door, but of course, it is not that easy. My mate gra
bs my shoulders and turns me back around, facing him. The tingles from his touch slowly spread throughout my body, instantly relaxing me.

  “I don’t think so,” he says.

  “I have to go make sure my grandmother is okay. At least let me check on her, make sure she is at home and safe.”

  He sighs. “Alright, but you are not going alone.”

  “I don’t want to take you away from your work,” I protest.

  His expression softens. “Evangeline, I don’t want to risk your safety, and I cannot trust anyone else right now.”

  I lightly nod, agreeing to his offer. I tighten the string of the robe, preparing for the crisp autumn weather to hit me roughly when I step outside. Following him out the door, my attention drifts as my eyes watch the tall grass by the tree line. The long blades softly sway in the breeze, making me feel as if I have entered some sort of dreamland.

  I also watch my mate.

  I am not sure what alphas do. All I know is that they are the leader of the pack. One of the many things prodding me in the back of the head is the title luna. She is the queen of the alpha’s king.

  Will I become luna? Me, the girl that was locked in an attic, then hidden at her grandmother’s house? The girl who speaks to a person no one else can see? I do not sound like the person for the job. Not only am I clueless about alphas but lunas also, which seems obvious. How can one know about the luna and not the alpha and the other way around?

  “Listen, we aren’t trying to cause you any trouble.”

  My head turns in the direction of the voice.

  Off to the right, in the direction of the building, I see three men, and one of them is Ryker. The other two look to be standing against the wall, their backs to the dull bricks.

  “What’s going on over there?”

  “Nothing. Now keep walking,” my mate says, though there seems to be something going on.

  As I look closer and think harder, I realize that those two men must be the rogues Ryker was talking about.

  My feet begin to lead me in that direction, driving me away from my grandmother’s house.

  “You are not going over there.” My mate grabs my arm. “Just a minute ago you were begging to see your grandmother, so that is what we are going to do.”

  “What’s happening over there?” I question while pulling my arm from his grasp. “Those are the rogues. What are they doing?”

  My mate says nothing but gives me a certain look.

  “I want to go over there.”

  “You are not going over there.”

  Suddenly, I spin around and quickly walk in the direction my feet are dying to take me to. I can feel my mate behind me. Surprisingly, I notice an object in Ryker’s hand, but I cannot see it clear enough to tell what exactly it is.

  “I said—” He begins, and I interrupt.

  “What is he holding? Is that a…Is that a gun?” Immediately, I start to move faster. “He has a gun.” I glance back and shout at my mate, who oddly, does not seem as surprised as I am.

  That man, Ryker, he is going to hurt those people. He is going to shoot them.

  “You have to stop him!”

  “Evangeline, stop,” my mate says harshly. “Don’t make me force you.”

  His threat only makes me move faster, and soon enough, the three notice me hurrying towards them.

  “I see your gun!” I yell to Ryker as I stomp accusingly up to him. “How could you do something like this?”

  He peers behind me to the alpha as if he did not hear me.

  “We are leaving,” my mate tells me, not giving me any options by the tone of his voice.

  Without thinking, I snatch the weapon from Ryker’s grasp and hold it to my chest.

  “Evangeline, let go of the gun,” he says carefully and reaches his hand out, expecting me to give it to him.

  I ignore my mate and glare at Ryker. “You were going to kill these people.”

  “Yes, as my alpha ordered me to.”

  My brow furrows together before I look back to him. “You ordered these people to be killed?” I ask with the gun still in my hand.

  My mate suddenly steps forward, lunging for the weapon, but I move away and hold the gun up out of fear. I point the nozzle directly at his chest.

  “Give me the gun.” His voice grows more tense, more unforgiving.

  “You were going to kill me. You called me a rogue!”

  “Why would I kill you?” He steps closer. “Why would I kill my own mate?”

  My hand begins to shake. “I-I…All I want is to see my grandmother.”

  “We can do that.”

  “And I want these people set free. A-along with the girl that was in my cell,” I order.

  I’m still pointing the gun at him. Obviously, I am not going to shoot anything, but they do not need to know that.

  “I can’t do that,” he says.

  I straighten my arm, emphasizing that there is indeed a gun pointing at his chest.

  “I know you aren’t going to shoot me. You can’t.” His eyes gaze steadily into mine, making me clench my free hand into a fist. “Now give me the gun so you don’t hurt yourself, and we can go see your grandmother.”

  “No, I want them to be free. You called me a rogue, and all I did was accidentally step on your land.”

  “Yes,” one of the men against the building calls out. “We did not know this was claimed land, Alpha, or we would have stayed far away.”

  My mate does not engage with the man, but instead, he attempts to grab the gun again, this time, gripping my arm, holding me in place. Knowing that if he gets it, these people will die, I do the only thing that I know will make him listen to me.

  I quickly hold the gun up to my head.

  My mate lets go immediately.

  “Let them go,” I repeat, and this time, I see the fear in his eyes. “I’ll do it.”

  “Evangeline, please. Move the gun.”

  “After they are set free.”

  He runs his hand through his hair. “Fine, let them go. I don’t care. Now give me the gun.”

  “And the girl in my cell.”

  Ryker cuts in. “This is ridiculous, Alpha. She’s just a little girl. Let me take the gun from her.”

  “I am not a—”

  Ryker abruptly lunges towards me and grabs my arm holding the gun, pulling it down. The weapon almost slips from my grasp, and I fight to hang onto it. Then a shot rings in my ears.

  “Evangeline!”

  I let out a bloodcurdling scream and drop the gun to the grass. My hands spring up to my head, and I examine them, seeing small blood stains on my palm. The sight of the red liquid sends my head into an inevitable spin, as the sight of blood has always made my stomach rise. This blood though, this blood is my own and caused by my own frantic actions. I swallow and try to steady myself.

  Unexpectedly, a comforting feeling comes over me as two arms wrap around my swaying body, stopping me from tumbling to the dirt. This soothing feeling is like no other. This feeling has my nerves in a frenzy. Oddly, my mind is taken from the frightening wetness on my hand.

  When I was little, I thought I would die of old age. I thought one day I would just naturally not wake up. It was a peaceful idea yet unrealistic. Though dying from plainly being wrinkled and weak was likely not going to come true, never did I think I would die because of my own accidental, panic-stricken actions. Not only have I managed to kill myself, but I also am not sure if those people are going to be released. Please, do not let me die without a purpose.

  “I swear if we die because of your idiotic choices, I’m going to kill you. Again,” my wolf hisses at me in pain.

  “Find out what the rogues did and see if we can let them go,” he commands Ryker while holding onto me for dear life.

  My hand lightly pats the back of my head again, sending a horrific, sharp pain through me. I wince and drop my hand to my side.

  “What were you thinking?”

  I do not notice that I am crying unti
l he wipes the salty tears from my flushed cheeks. The softness of his touch eases the throbbing of my wound. Will I die in this stranger’s arms as if we have known each other for decades? My mate’s touch, though new, makes me feel like we have been together for many years like I know him better than I know myself. It is a funny feeling, the mate bond.

  My eyes drift to the field, almost in the direction of Grandma’s house. If I am correct, if I am dying at this moment, I will never get to say goodbye, and she may never know what happened to me. To her, I just disappeared one day and never came back.

  “I have to get a doctor,” my mate’s voice comes to me again.

  I want to say something back, but my lips stay shut. My body is too focused on the pain and the bond. Oh my poor mate, though he seems rather dark and ruthless, he has lost his mate so soon. Somehow I have managed to do something selfless and selfish at the same time.

  He lifts me up the porch steps, as my legs are not much help, and he brings me inside. Reality no longer feels real. Everything around me is fuzzy and dream-like. I lie down on the couch and stare up at the ceiling, thinking about all the time in my life that I have wasted and how I could have done more to prepare myself for the end. Should I have never told my parents about the Moon Goddess? Should I have listened to Grandma when she said not to climb that tree? Should I have crossed the stream? How much more blood can pour out of me? Surely my blurry surroundings must be a sign that my blood is running low.

  “Marina, call the doctor now,” he calls.

  It does not take long for her to come scurrying into the room with the phone in her grasp. “I just called him. What’s the matter?”

  “There was an accident. A bullet skimmed the back of her head.” I could tell by the sound of his voice that he hated to say it.

  It is unusual to have a stranger care for me so strongly.

  The bullet skimmed me. That does not sound as severe as I thought my injury would be. Is it possible that I could survive and that I could live just a little longer before I play goddess once again? My dizzy head makes my stomach rise and threatens to spill all it is holding. Maybe this is all a dream. Maybe I will wake up in my cozy bed. The sun will shine on my cheeks and blind me slightly when I open them at first. I will roll over, avoiding the intense rays, only for Grandma to peek inside and tell me that she made breakfast. Oh, she makes the yummiest hash browns.